Acceptance

Well my small readership,

Another week has passed in Cheongju and I remain alive. This is positive news, although expected, it is still positive.........

This week my transition into independent-teaching is the biggest news. As Tedd unfortunately left this week( I am still crying inside), I am now the teacher of 11 classes. I feel that being a teacher is a large responsibility-- teachers are a significant source of student motivation. The composition of a lesson plans oftentimes determines the degree of a kid's attention-level. Ultimately a student decides their path through their education, but the individuals they meet along way are noteworthy influences. So taking over this week was slightly stressful because I really want to do a good job. When the classes are large, I feel that I have not delivered what the students deserve. I hope that I will learn methods of ensuring good instruction despite large class-size.

It is strange how quickly the time passes.......
I feel like a few hours after I wake up it is time for work and then bam! time for sleep. The way that time flows causes me to feel unproductive. I should intensify my efforts in learning korean(which are currently quite insubstantial). Learning Korean would greatly facilitate the fluidity of my my maneuvering. With such limited means of expression, I feel rather silly getting in cabs and going to the store.

As I stayed in Cheongju this weekend, I lack any exciting adventures to report. I did have a lot of time to reflect on existence.......

Life is full of intricate webs of human connection. We are driven to make contact with others, to share a piece of our lives. I think this drive comes from a subconscious motivation to make our personal existence real. For an individual to leave a record on this earth, another individual must witness a piece of their existence and take possession of that fragment. If we lived our lives without contacting other people, there would be no proof of one's reality. Thus, a large component of any individual's life is spent making these interpersonal connections.
I would explain the general human desire to love and be loved results from the drive to leave a piece of ourselves in this world. Although subconsciously this drive is selfish, it does not take away from the beauty of caring for other people. In my experience there is no greater feeling than embracing loved ones and enjoying their company. I believe those joyous feelings, regardless of selfish motivations, substantiate dull everyday experiences to constitute the more wondrous and mysterious elements of human existence............

Much Love,
-Holly-